This is the Montreal getaway we were going to do in 2020. Another epic motorcycle road trip you planned for us — our longest multi-day ride. Up there with our Asheville, and Lake Cuomo moto adventures.

We would have had such fun! You would have loved it.

The weather was perfect. The ride was beautiful, and healing. The people were friendly. There was so much to see. I felt you with me for all of it.

Five years. I find myself asking questions like am I supposed to be feeling a way, or doing a thing, transitioning, letting go, moving on, finding clarity, experiencing epiphanies?

I’m not sure what to do with that.

I’ve been trying to embrace the ideas of letting go of grasping, of trying to control, of letting life unfold, of not being afraid to let this in. That feeling pain is what it means to be alive — and how precious moments of peace, joy, and happiness are. Being grateful.

I am so happy that we had the time we did, and that you shared yourself with me.

Loving, and missing you.